God Makes No Mistakes

Tomorrow would have been my due date. God was with me the day I lost Samuel. He knew it was going to happen before it did. He was standing there with me in the shower that Wednesday morning. He knew that with that second cramp my faith would be tested. He heard me when I cried out to Him, He was already there. My God is so amazing! When I was laying on that sterile hospital bed and felt the loss of life and saw the loss of blood, He was beside me. "I will never leave thee nor forsake thee". When the nurse handed me my son and I held for the first and last time
- God was holding me. I could feel his arms around me. He was comforting me with His loving presence. I went home feeling like a hollow shell and God felt my pain. He grieved with me and mourned my loss because I am His child and He loves me.
God's people surrounded me with their love that night at church. They lifted me up in prayer. " My cup runneth over...".
I woke up later that evening and when the crushing reality of what had happened came to my mind, I went and cried quietly on the couch. But I was not alone! My Saviour was with me. What a friend we have in Jesus!
The next few days I couldn't eat and I didn't sleep well. My Lord didn't demand that I get over it or stop my crying.He just loved me. His words comforted me. I take great comfort in my God. He knows exactly how I feel because He lost His Son once too. I can take great comfort in him because He is omniscient. He has a plan and though it is not known to me, I do know He will be with me through it all. I know I will see my son again.These tears that I still cry over my loss will one day be wiped away by my Saviour. " My grace is sufficient for thee, for my strength is made perfect in weakness." II Corinthians 12:9
I love my God so much because with out Him I would have never made it through this. He breaks me and He molds me and all the while I am drawn closer to Him.
My dear friend Shelli and I will sing a duet for church one of these Sundays and she chose " God Makes No Mistakes". It goes like this:
" My life I give to You, O Lord, use me I pray. May I glorify Your precious name in all I do and say. Let me trust You in the valley dark as well as in the light, knowing You will always lead me, Your will is always right. I know God makes no mistakes. He leads in every path I take along the way that's leading me to home. Tho' at times my heart would break, there's a purpose in each change He makes. That others would see my life and know that God makes no mistakes."